Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Story Mode..

My Facebook status right now is, "I am on TOP of the WORLD!!! JD always knows how to make me feel better even when he is miles and miles away. I love that kid." And it is so, so true.
I have not been having the easiest time accepting the fact that I don't get to talk to JD on the phone anymore when he calls. And he knows that. I don't know how he feels about it and if it is as hard for him as it is for me, but he understands what I am feeling. It's just that letters or emails are not the same.. they are from him, but he's not really there. It's so different being able to talk and have him resond right then, even if it only is twice a year. So, here is my story.
Well, I am sitting in class just about ready to take a test, and my phone buzzes. It's an email from JD!! I usually get emails about that time, so I try to hurry and read it before the teacher passes out the tests. But this one's different.. it's really short and addressed to only me. My first thought is, uh oh. I read the email...wait, what? I have to read it again. And again. It says, hey if you get this right now reply back as soon as you can because I want to talk to you!! I miss you!! And I can talk to you for about an hour if you want to. I quickly reply, I'm here!! I love you!! Of course I want to talk!!
Then, the teacher says, put everything away and turn off all cell phones. Oh, crap. I totally forgot about my test. I want to cry because this is my one chance to talk to JD and it's being ruined by some stupid test I will probably do bad on anyways! I check quickly for an email from him, but nothing. So I put my phone away and simmer in anger at my teacher for ruining my one chance. He had an hour to talk to me, and my class was 50 minutes long. I hate my life.
I take my test, and the whole time I have to keep reminding myself to pay attention to what the questions on the test are asking me instead of whether or not JD said something, and if he will still be there when I'm done. Finally, I finish my test and practically run it up to the teacher, fling my stuff over my shoulder, and run out of the class. Once I'm outside the class I stop right where I am at and rip my phone out of my backpack.. there are two emails from JD. One saying, Good, I'm glad you want to talk! How are you? What are you doing? How is everything? I love you!! And another saying, Kiddo! Reply to me, I WANT to talk to YOU!!
I scramble to reply to his email (but of course because I am trying to hurry so fast, I mess up even more so it takes even longer) saying, I'm still here!! I'm sorry I had to take a test! Please tell me you are still there! :( And then, I wait. I'm getting pretty good at WAITING. So far, nothing comes. I try to convice myself that he isn't there so that I'm not let down when nothing comes. I refresh my email inbox 20 times before an email pops up. It's from him! He says, I can talk for fifteen more mins. Sorry I interrupted your test! I am standing in the halls of the college and I start tearing up in front of everyone. But I do not care one bit, JD is there, and I GET TO TALK TO HIM!!
Sigh of relief, fifteen minutes! Not an hour, but better than nothing. So I talk, about home. He wants to know everything, how his room is, how his family is, how my family is, how his dogs are.. it was so normal. But it was perfect! It was us, talking again. I miss that feeling so much. Next thing I know, I look at the clock and it's been an hour since he said he could talk for fifteen mins. Wow! He must really love me to stay that much longer to talk. The last email I get from him says, I have to go now. But I love you so much!!! I am going to email you like this next week, so be ready! But I can't do it everyweek.. and don't tell anyone because it is against the rules to talk like this.
Okay. Story's over. And that being said, I know that posting this on here isn't really "not telling anyone" but I'm sure everyone will agree that with all the rules JD follows and everything, this little emailing adventure I received was really no biggie considering most girlfriends are allowed a lot more contact than I am. But I'm sure JD would not be the happiest person that I posted it for all to see... so please, don't mention it. Literally. :)
And now, in conclusion.. I realize why JD talked to me and why he is planning on it on Monday. It's because Mother's Day is soon, and he knows I'm having a hard time with it. He has to be doing this to make up for a it. And I have to say, it definately will have made it easier on me.. I'm not so completely in the dark. When I wrote his letter this week I told him, I know you were talking to me for my benefit, and that makes me sound weak. But you know, sometimes I am weak.. This is hard. And evertime I start feeling weak, you somehow know exactly what to do to lift me up. So thank you for talking to me this week, it meant a lot to me and really did help me. I know you can't talk to me like that every week, and that's okay. But this week, I am the happiest girl in the world. :)
[emails were shortened for the sake of privacy]

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Busy Bee



My life could be well described lately as a busy bee. Everything all seems to be happening at once. School ending soon, dance ending, summer classes starting, spring cleaning..it never ends. And although I'm crazy busy all the time, I am grateful for it because it helps time fly by. I'm almost at six months down, a fourth of the way done with JD's mission!!

I had my dance concert/end of semester show a few weeks ago. It was a lot of fun and it was great to be able to hang out with the girls. During the show though, it was hard for me because I never really appreciated everything JD did when he was here, like coming to every single dance performance of mine. And it's hard to think that there is the good possibility that he will never see me dance again, cuz by time he gets home I will have had to move on from dancing. But, his mission right now is the right thing for him, and like Elder Rasband said in the priesthood session in April, it is the most important thing for men his age to be focusing on.

I have had lots of fun hanging out with all the girls from my dance company lately, I really hope next semester we are all as close as we were this semester. It was good to be able to enjoy coming to dance and being with friends.




Friday, April 2, 2010

Jabbawockeez!


Tonight was quite an experience! The Jabbawockeez from MTV's America's Best Dance Crew was at SLCC performing. I never watched that show that much, but being a dancer and a major hip hop fan, how can you not know who the Jabbawockeez are? These guys can do some crazy things! I love that they based their moves on Michael Jackson. Wonderful idea there. There were times during their performance that I could have sworn they were not real. The way they move, they just look like dolls, or robots. Typical description of a break dancer/popper, but really! There is no other way to explain it. I personally love the idea of the masks too. It keeps everyone wondering and wanting more..adds a little mystery. But tonight at the end of their performance, they took their masks off. It was great, everyone loved them. Pictures weren't allowed during the performance, but of course I had to get a little sneak peak. Therefore, my pictures aren't very great, they are very small and barely visible in the picture. I have the world's brightest flash on my phone so I had to turn it completely off in order to take a few pictures. But, they are still pictures. Yay!