Story Mode..

My Facebook status right now is, "I am on TOP of the WORLD!!! JD always knows how to make me feel better even when he is miles and miles away. I love that kid." And it is so, so true.

I have not been having the easiest time accepting the fact that I don't get to talk to JD on the phone anymore when he calls. And he knows that. I don't know how he feels about it and if it is as hard for him as it is for me, but he understands what I am feeling. It's just that letters or emails are not the same.. they are from him, but he's not really there. It's so different being able to talk and have him resond right then, even if it only is twice a year. So, here is my story.

Well, I am sitting in class just about ready to take a test, and my phone buzzes. It's an email from JD!! I usually get emails about that time, so I try to hurry and read it before the teacher passes out the tests. But this one's different.. it's really short and addressed to only me. My first thought is, uh oh. I read the email...wait, what? I have to read it again. And again. It says, hey if you get this right now reply back as soon as you can because I want to talk to you!! I miss you!! And I can talk to you for about an hour if you want to. I quickly reply, I'm here!! I love you!! Of course I want to talk!!

Then, the teacher says, put everything away and turn off all cell phones. Oh, crap. I totally forgot about my test. I want to cry because this is my one chance to talk to JD and it's being ruined by some stupid test I will probably do bad on anyways! I check quickly for an email from him, but nothing. So I put my phone away and simmer in anger at my teacher for ruining my one chance. He had an hour to talk to me, and my class was 50 minutes long. I hate my life.

I take my test, and the whole time I have to keep reminding myself to pay attention to what the questions on the test are asking me instead of whether or not JD said something, and if he will still be there when I'm done. Finally, I finish my test and practically run it up to the teacher, fling my stuff over my shoulder, and run out of the class. Once I'm outside the class I stop right where I am at and rip my phone out of my backpack.. there are two emails from JD. One saying, Good, I'm glad you want to talk! How are you? What are you doing? How is everything? I love you!! And another saying, Kiddo! Reply to me, I WANT to talk to YOU!!

I scramble to reply to his email (but of course because I am trying to hurry so fast, I mess up even more so it takes even longer) saying, I'm still here!! I'm sorry I had to take a test! Please tell me you are still there! :( And then, I wait. I'm getting pretty good at WAITING. So far, nothing comes. I try to convice myself that he isn't there so that I'm not let down when nothing comes. I refresh my email inbox 20 times before an email pops up. It's from him! He says, I can talk for fifteen more mins. Sorry I interrupted your test! I am standing in the halls of the college and I start tearing up in front of everyone. But I do not care one bit, JD is there, and I GET TO TALK TO HIM!!

Sigh of relief, fifteen minutes! Not an hour, but better than nothing. So I talk, about home. He wants to know everything, how his room is, how his family is, how my family is, how his dogs are.. it was so normal. But it was perfect! It was us, talking again. I miss that feeling so much. Next thing I know, I look at the clock and it's been an hour since he said he could talk for fifteen mins. Wow! He must really love me to stay that much longer to talk. The last email I get from him says, I have to go now. But I love you so much!!! I am going to email you like this next week, so be ready! But I can't do it everyweek.. and don't tell anyone because it is against the rules to talk like this.

Okay. Story's over. And that being said, I know that posting this on here isn't really "not telling anyone" but I'm sure everyone will agree that with all the rules JD follows and everything, this little emailing adventure I received was really no biggie considering most girlfriends are allowed a lot more contact than I am. But I'm sure JD would not be the happiest person that I posted it for all to see... so please, don't mention it. Literally. :)

And now, in conclusion.. I realize why JD talked to me and why he is planning on it on Monday. It's because Mother's Day is soon, and he knows I'm having a hard time with it. He has to be doing this to make up for a it. And I have to say, it definately will have made it easier on me.. I'm not so completely in the dark. When I wrote his letter this week I told him, I know you were talking to me for my benefit, and that makes me sound weak. But you know, sometimes I am weak.. This is hard. And evertime I start feeling weak, you somehow know exactly what to do to lift me up. So thank you for talking to me this week, it meant a lot to me and really did help me. I know you can't talk to me like that every week, and that's okay. But this week, I am the happiest girl in the world. :)

[emails were shortened for the sake of privacy]