Logan and Chad

Hearing of Logan and Chad's deaths was particularly heartbreaking.  I was driving to my fiance's house on Sunday to head to church after and he called me and told me the news.  From the horrible story he told me, I didn't believe him at first.  But after some research, I learned the terrifying story was true.  Logan, Chad, and Derek had gone out duck hunting Saturday on the Great Salt Lake.  A storm came in and their boat...

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Grandma Stam

This last weekend has been truly exhausting.  There is so much that has happened and I can't believe it all happened in the same weekend.  As much heartbreak as I feel I can no longer endure, I know and really feel for the other closer, more important people these events directly effected.  My heart is broken for their sake and my prayers are with everyone effected by these horrible turn of events. I got home from my graveyard...

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The Proposal!

October 13, 2012 at about 6:30 pm my life changed forever.  The man of my dreams finally proposed!  I can't believe it is real, we are really engaged!  Cody and I have had such a rough ride getting to this point.  I think we have endured things through the dating phase that most couples would never have to face.  But I also know that is why we are where we are, that is why we have made it to the point of being engaged. ...

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Remembering Brock

I've been pretty fortunate in my life to not have experienced much death.  I have all four of my grandparents still, all of my extended and immediate family.  I even had the same dog from when I was 5 years old up until just last October.  My dog dying was very terrible for me, and probably the worst I've experienced.  Call me lucky, or call me unlucky because it will probably all come crashing down at the same time.  But...

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Fall Time!

A crappy picture of our beautiful hike.  Once I steal Cody's camera, I will have much better pictures to show off. I love fall.  I.  Love.  Fall.  The colors are so beautiful and amazing!  It's funny that I've lived in Utah my whole life and still every time fall comes around I'm amazed at how colorful our mountains turn every fall.  I had an amazing week this week and I got to spend a lot of much needed time...

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How to Support the Unsupported

Lately, I've had many questions going through my head.  Is marrying Cody the right decision for me?  Where does JD play into my life?  How do I go against my parent's wishes and marry someone they do not approve of?  Then add of the stress of finishing up nursing school and being busy with clinicals and work.  Let's say it's been a stressful time of my life. I put a picture of the evil stepmother in Snow White on...

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To Marry or Not To Marry

Marriage.  Such a scary topic.  Why is this such a scary topic?  Apparently everyone gives you this wonderful idea growing up that getting married was going to be so beautiful and happy and just peachy.  Well, no one told me that it was going to be as painful of a process as it has been.  I'm getting married. I'm pretty sure I'm getting married. Yep. I am getting married. You know those super predictable,...

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December 21st, 2012!!

Welp.  School has been extremely stressful as of late.  Nursing school is supposed to be stressful right?  You wouldn't believe the stress my school has been under.  I invite the thought of regular nursing school stresses now.  Oh what it would be to just stress about school work, tests, and that ever coming NCLEX.  My nursing school is shutting down.  This, that, and the other... they were told to shut...

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I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz

I was getting ready today listening to wonderful Pandora, and this song came on. And there is so much I could go on to say about this song.  But I'm just going to leave it at, oh my heck it's SOO true. When I look into your eyes, it's like watching the night sky or a beautiful sunrise. There's so much they hold.  And just like them old stars, I see that you've come so far to be right where you are. How old is your soul? I...

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Love Comes Once in a Lifetime

It's really not fair, all those fairy tales society provides to small children as they grow up.  I know I have posted about this before, but seriously.  Why do we feed little children with these huge expectations of love when they usually aren't true? Love is so much harder than portrayed.  It's not fair and does not provide proper preparation for the difficult road love truly is.   When you fall in love, when you...

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Is a Dream Really a Wish Your Heart Makes?

Cinderella sings, "A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep." How true is that really? What about the bad dreams? A heart couldn't possibly wish for bad things to occur. Right? I'm being haunted in my dreams. I'd like to call it a small form of PTSD, or for the non medical people out there, post traumatic stress disorder. See, an instance happened to me a few months back. Not a very big instance, to some you would call it a small...

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I Said Leave...

Isn't it true though? Isn't this always true?  My cute friend made this picture from a Taylor Swift song and I'm just realizing more and more how real this dumb little lyric line is in my life.   Two boys.  Two wonderful, amazing, perfect men that I fell so in love with.  Not an ideal situation and I've had so many people tell me it's impossible.  But they are wrong.  Think what you will, but they are wrong....

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Where Can I Turn For Peace?

Where can I turn for peace? Where is my solace when other sources cease to make me whole? When with a wounded heart, anger, or malice, I draw myself apart, searching my soul? Where when my aching grows, where, when I languish, where, in my need to know, where can I run? Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish? Who, who can understand? He, only One. He answers privately, reaches my reaching in my Gethsemane, Savior and Friend. Gentle the peace...

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Life's Callings

I feel like I have had just an extremely ungrateful attitude about me lately and I need an opportunity to be humbled. When I get emotional or extremely passionate about something, I write. I have about a billion zillion different journals that have a full rainbow of emotions written inside. But it feels lately that I only write during the hard times and I don't want it to be like that. I have my trials and I learn to handle them as every day passes,...

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Terrible Habits

I have developed over the last month or so, a ridiculously terrible sleeping habit.  As you can tell as I post this at 2:30 AM.  For some dumb reason, I just cannot sleep at night.  Not one bit, I literally stay up all dang night long.  Which in turn, means I sleep until the day is over.  Usually around 11 AM is when I finally roll out of bed.  I think it's safe to say that I'm not so much a morning person, it takes me a bit to get going.  However, in the slight chance that I do get up early, once I'm up and going...

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