Cinderella sings, "A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep." How true is that really? What about the bad dreams? A heart couldn't possibly wish for bad things to occur. Right?
I'm being haunted in my dreams. I'd like to call it a small form of PTSD, or for the non medical people out there, post traumatic stress disorder. See, an instance happened to me a few months back. Not a very big instance, to some you would call it a small bump in the road. But an instance that caused some heart ache none the less. Periodically since that instance, I've had a reoccurring dream haunt after me. It's not a good dream at all. And I wake up feeling betrayed and hurt. Each time I have this dream, it's a little bit different. A different situation, different story line, but the same underlying concept. Some are extreme cases, other are small- like the case that actually happened to me in my awake life. But it effects the way I start my day, my thinking between reality and dream land is impaired and line between the two is faded.
What really doesn't make sense is that real life is near perfect now. Other than certain things out of anyone's control, nothing could be better. So to have these nightmares is unfair and definitely unwelcomed. What can I do from here to stop my small form of PTSD in my sleep. I don't want to dread sleep anymore, life is great! I know that these dreams would never come true, so why are they constantly coming back to haunt me?
A nurse I was with for clinicals told me all about dream catchers. They were created obviously to catch your bad dreams. It is made into a web with beads tied into the web all around. Those beads are little permanent safes for bad dreams. Once they go in, they never come out. The strings and feathers hanging down from the dream catcher is where the good dreams are filtered through and drip down from the catcher and into your head, which is also the reason you hang the dream catcher at the head of your bed.
Do I believe in rituals and legends, and dream catchers for that matter? I don't know. But I do believe in psychological reassurance and I know the impact that has. I don't know where these haunting dreams come from, but I don't intend on letting them stay. A painful experience can be held in the heart for a long time, but sometimes it's just a small boost of faith that is needed to move on and continue forward. And that is what I intend on doing.
